12:16 p.m. - 2007-10-20
remembered
The air surrounds me with its hot heaviness; leaving me breathless for a wet spring morning. Laying there with him in my bed; touseled sheets and tangled limbs. I think of the hours before and reflex on how intimate and raw we were together. He hasn't asked for much; just to lazily read my body and mind- and somehow it's like he's read the pages before...rememberances of a thought he completes, a spot that is rubbed lightly that drives me crazy, contact of eyes, shared breath in a kiss...touching souls. He knows my sorrow, my shame, my darkness...
I plan my escape; from this web of deceit and pleasure. I know he'll take pieces of me for himself, and I will hide away all the jagged edges so no one can see. I will smile and laugh a little; but it will not reach my eyes; and "He" will know my secret heart has wandered and gotten lost. Will know that it's not just him and I anymore, but three. GET OUT! Three's a crowd. I have to escape this.....
